Break Down

Today was another crazily busy day! I got up early, took a shower and got ready, got Alyssa ready, then Alyssa, Bre, and I went to the eye doctor. Bre and I had an appointment. I have contacts again though! YAY!
I had to come back home right after to feed Alyssa because she was throwing a fit, then I took Bre to school, I then took Alyssa to her doctor’s appointment where she had to get shots. I also had them check her where she’s been crying even when I feed her when I don’t have the Gripe Water in her system. He said she was fine that it was just the Colic. Then she got her shots. OMG did she scream! I told her mommy wouldn’t make her go through that if I didn’t have to. It broke my heart. I didn’t cry though, yay! She got 3 today though, two in one leg, one in the other. Oh and they also gave her some kind of med. orally. She hated the taste of it and kept spitting it out. Lol… She said as long as it gets on her tongue it’s okay. So that’s good. I think she did swallow some of it though, so that’s good.
So after that I came home and met with my HANDS lady and that was nice. I kept yawning on her though. She didn’t bore me at all, I was just sooo tired. I yawn on her everytime she’s here though, so I think she’s used to it. I’ve told her I was just tired many times. I think she understands.
So I had to go get Bre right after she left. I had given Alyssa Tylenol for the pain in her legs, but it just wasn’t working. I was even having to hold her the whole HANDS appointment. So, after I picked Bre up we came home and Alyssa just kept screaming. Ugh. I gave her a bath, I think that made it worse. Mom called and heard her screaming and told me to call her doctors office. So I did, the receptionist answered and heard her screaming was like “OMG, what’s wrong?” And I, by this point start crying because all I can reply with is “I don’t know” So, she tells me to hold on and just a minute or so later comes back and tells me her doctor wants me to bring her back in right away. So, I pack her up quickly while Bre calls mom and lets her know *she wanted me to call her back after I talked to them* and I head out. Mom calls while I’m on my way over there to tell me she’s meeting me there. Thank God she did! I was having a break down!
So, on the way Alyssa stops crying. Great. Now I’m going to look like a crazy lady! We go in and they tell me to sit down for just a minute, so I’m sitting there and Alyssa starts crying again. Nothing like before though. So, I’m holding her when mom gets there, and when she walks in I just break down again. Yeah, I was a mess today. Mom gets Alyssa and calms her down. We go back right after and they check her and she’s fine. It’s just a mix of the Colic and the shots she got. He told me that when I get nervous, worried, or upset the feeling goes straight to her and it makes her upset too. So when I feel that way I need to just give her to someone until I calm down. Okay, that works. This didn’t make me feel any better, cause the first thought in my head is, “Oh great. <i>I</i> did this to my baby? I deserve mother of the freaking year!”
Anyway, we leave and come back home. I took Bre to Wal-Mart to pick some stuff up and then took her to meet up with dad so she could go to work *She works for him* and then I had to go back to Wal-Mart to pick up a few things, most imporantly Alyssa’s med.
I came back home after that and slept from around 7:00pm until about 11:00pm. I was exhuasted!!! I am STILL tired too, so I think I’ll get ready and go back to sleep.

XOXO,
~Brann

Gripe Water

Now I’m up to date, so here’s my very first VLog! Don’t be too harsh on me! I’m new to video editing!! Lol…

Took Alyssa to the doctor today…

She has colic. Ugh. I knew she did. They put her on a new formula. It’s called Nutramigen Lipil. Its for babies with Colic. They also put her on a medicine called Hyoscyamine. I have to give it to her 4 times a day. Hopefully it will help!! Maybe we’ll get some sleep tonight. Probably not though lol.
Well, gotta go. Alyssa is calling.
XOXO,
~Brann

Sleep? What’s that?

Sorry it’s been a few days since I last wrote. I’ve been horribly busy.
Yesterday mom, Bre, Alyssa, and I went to Lexington. Alyssa had to have an ultrasound done on her hips to make sure they were okay. They made the appointment right after she was born and still in the NICU. They said that where she was breech. C-Section, and a girl it was likely that her hips could go out of socket. Hopefully the results will come back good. Her doctor here said that her hips seemed fne, but that we should go ahead and get it done just in case. So, I hope he’s right! What’s cool is that I know the girl that did her ultrasound! I hadn’t got to see her in FOREVER, so it was great to get to. She had only seen pictures of her on here.
Anyway, as for the title. I haven’t gotten hardly any sleep in a while. It’s getting worse too. I’m so afraid that Alyssa’s getting Colic.  She screams and cries most the time. I give her Mylicon and I put Karo Syrup in her formula, it doesn’t seem to work much at all either. The Mylicon helps some, like right now she’s asleep YAY! But unfortunately I can’t. I gotta get ready and wash bottles. I don’t really have time to. I shouldn’t be on here right now, but I wanted to let you guys know how everything is going. Plus, I’m addicted to this blogging thing now haha. I always try to feed her, change her diaper, and just hold her when she’s crying. It doesn’t aways help. I’ve tried rubbing her belly, someone suggested that to me. It seemed to help, but I can’t do tht constantly. And I was also told to try and lay her on her stomach. I know you’re not supposed to do that anymore, but I tried it anyway. That’s how she is right now. I’m so paranoid though I’m constantly checking on her to make sure she’s okay. I don’t know how long I can let her do that lol. I read on a colic site to do that too, but like I said, I’m paranoid about the SIDS thing. I don’t know what I’d do if something happened to her!  OH! I was told about this medicine called “Bubble-B-Gone” but haven’t gotten any yet. Apparently they have it at the pharmacy in Betsy Lane,  but I haven’t had time to go up there yet. I need to ask her doctor about it too before I try it where she’s a preemie. Anyway, if anyone has any suggestions on anything else I can do PLEASE let me know. I’m going crazy!!!
Last night/This morning my mom was getting ready for work and heard Alyssa keep screaming and came to check on us and found me sleeping. She couldn’t hardly get me to wake up either. I guess I’m just so exhuasted I fell asleep. I don’t remember any of this. I remember holding her trying to get her to sleep, then waking up and she was beside me in the bed. I don’t remember hardly talking to mom either. I just know she was in there waking me up because Alyssa was sceaming. I hope Alyssa hadn’t been for too long!
Well, time to wash bottles.
~Brann

Happy Valentines Day

I hope everyone had a wonderful Valentines Day! Mine was rather uneventful. How about some responses telling me about your best and/or worst Valentines Day.

Children of Appalachia

Tonight, my home town was on the ABC special about Eastern Kentucky. I was afraid I would be pissed about the way she made us look, however unfortunately there are people who do live in poverty and in homes where drug abuse and trafficing take place.
I am blessed to live in a nice home and drive a nice car. There are more who don’t than who do.
It was cool to see where I live on TV. I honestly had no idea she was here. I honestly don’t think many did. I wish they would have shown more of our accomplishments with academics and things of that nature. Oh well. I could go on and on about What I think about it, but I am exhausted! I’ll write more later.
I could have done without the brother and sister sex thing. That was really sad though.

Getting out

I’ve started getting out a little more now that Alyssa is getting older. It’s quite nice.
One of my friends is in from Maryland. I hadn’t seen her in years. We always talk on myspace though. She may be moving back here too. That would be great!
I’m selling Avon now too. I sold it before when I was engaged to Jay. I really missed it, so I finally started back.
~Brann

Baby Shower

Today I had my baby shower. I know that I am supposed to have it before she was born, but I was admitted into the hospital a few days before I was supposed to have it and didn’t get out until after she was born. What else do ya do. So basically today was for everyone who hadn’t got to see her yet to get to come see her. I loved getting to see everyone. I hot a lot of stuff I needed.
I’m going on maybe 2 hours of sleep though where she has her days and nights mixed up, so it’s time for me to get some sleep now while I can. Mom is watching her for a couple hours for me. Thank God for her! I’d go crazy!!! Well… Crazier! LOL
Xoxo
Brann

4 weeks and ppd

It is hard to believe that Alyssa is already 4 weeks old! But even crazier, she still shouldn’t be here! There are a couple more weeks until that!
It has been crazy at times, but it’s all worth it! I am still battling the baby blues, but it is getting a lot easier. Thank goodness! The medicine my doctor put me on has helped a LOT! So to all the new moms, if you are feeling overwhelmed at all, make sure you talk to your doctor so he/she can help you! It’s completely normal! I know that you feel like a horrible mom for feeling like you do, trust me!! I wanted to just leave sometimes, and still can occasionally. don’t get me wrong, I’m not trying to say I know what I’m doing, I still don’t have a clue most of the time. I’ve only been doing this for 4 weeks! Heck, I will still be trying to figure this out when she’s my age probably! Ha!

Super Bowl; days and nights

Today was Super Bowl Sunday! I have always been a HUGE Steelers fan, so naturally I was quite happy when they won!!! It was years ago, but today ( SuperBowl Sunday) was the day I met Alyssa’s dad. So today I’ve had him on my mind a lot. I’m sure I’ve been on his too. It’s only natural right?
Anyway…
Alyssa has her days and nights mixed up! Ugh! I really need sleep!!! if I lay her down in her bed she starts crying after a few minutes.
I’m keeping my hopes up for a little sleep though! Haha. She’s laying up against my chest right now.