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Sorry it’s been a couple days since I last wrote, but I’ve been at my mom and dads. I’m going back home tomorrow, so things should get back to normal then.
Anyway, you guys need to follow me on twitter! I’ve had it for years, and still have less than 100 followers!!! Help me out!
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Well, I’m exhausted, so I’m going to sleep.

Goodnight all,
Brann

Storm

There was a storm at my house today, and I made a video during it. You can hear the TV and my little girl n the background, so my appologizes for that. Lol… Usually I shoot the videos during her nap time, but that wasn’t the case today. haha

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Vlog

 

Vlog that was long over due. Keep in mind that this was done at like 1:00am! Lol…
Oh, and just to clarify, I don’t just have 29 apps, that’s just how much was on that recepit lol. Yup, definitely addicted!! lol

This has to be the most boring vlog EVER!!! I’m onidering deleting it. I promise the rest will be more entertaining, I’m still new to the vlogging thing lol.  So, please make sure to subscribe!!

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Grrr!!!

For a while, Alyssa’s dad was in her life. He had left when I was 6 months prego, but after she was born he begged me to let him see her, so finally I gave in and started letting him come over to see her on the weekends. Well, he kept trying to get me back, and I wouldn’t. I finally told him I didn’t want to be with him and he hasn’t seen, called, or even messaged me about her!!! He started dating another girl and everything! It’s horrrible! I was hoping things would be different, but I guess some things just never change. She was so sick, and it’s like he did’t even care! UGH! He didn’t care to check on her once!!!

I just don’t see how you can walk away from your kids. The person I would DIE for, without even thinking twice about, he doesn’t even care enough to check on! It’s been a MONTH!!! And not just him, ANYONE mother or father that could do that, don’t deserve to have kids. I’m sorry, but it’s true!

We’re both better off though. If he’s just gonna be in and out of her life, then don’t think that you’re going to be in it AT ALL!! I’m not going to put my daughter through that. I can’t let him hurt her!  WON’T let him hurt her. I love her waaaay too much for that stupid shit.

Sorry, had to vent. Lol…

~Brann

Busy Busy

Sorry about not posting lately, I’ve just been crazy busy.

My best friend Jessica’s aunt had cancer. I’ve known Jess since Kindergarten, so her family is like my family and visa versa. Jess would always call and keep me informed of how she was doing. It just kept getting worse. Well, Jess called and told me she was coming in, she said her aunt was given 48 hours. So, she comes in and Alyssa and I go over with her. She and her daughter stayed with me and Alyssa at the apartment, but 99% of the time we were busy. basically we just slept there. Anyway, the next 3 days (she lived past the 48 hours) we stayed there with her and the rest of the family. Saturday was Bre’s prom so Alyssa and I came over to see her all dressed up before they left. I wasn’t here 20 minutes when Jen (jess’s sister) called me and told me she had passed and asked me to come back over there. So, mom told me to leave Alyssa with her (thanks mom) so I rushed back as soon as I could get there (thank goodness no cops were out) and we all just held each other and cried. They came and got her aunt and I believe that was the worst part for us all (besides the funeral). We stayed there with everyone that evening.

Oh, Jess’s uncle wasn’t there (her aunts brother) because her cousin was graduating Sunday in a different state. Anyway, after that night we spent the next few days at the funeral home and the funeral was Wed. That was rough because it was what made it real. She was really gone. She’s in a much better place and isn’t hurting anymore, so that helps. It was the hardest on Jess’s mom. That was her only sister! They were close too. I couldn’t imagine how she felt/feels. I don’t know what I would do if I lost Bre. Not only is she my only sister, but she’s the only sibling I have! I’d go crazy!!!

I left the names out because it’s a personal situation. A lot if people read my blog, so I want to keep their feelings in consideration.

Anyway, today is dads birthday and we are taking him out today, so I better get ready. LOL I already have Alyssa bathed and ready and she’s taking a nap, so I gotta take a shower while I have the chance! LOL

~Brann

Happy Mothers Day

As everyone is well aware, this is going to be my first Mothers Day. It’s not going to be anything special, I’m not expecting to recieve any gifts or anything, but I am going out to my granparents house (as is the rest of the family) where we are going to be cooking out, eating tons of food, and spending time together. That’s good enough for me. I really still see it as a day for all the other moms (especially my own mom and grandma). I suppose I’m still getting adjusted to the fact that I too am a mother. I just don’t think I deserve the special treatment that my mom, grandma, aunts, and cousins should get. They’ve been doing this a lot longer than I have. I’m only 4 months into it haha. I hope that other new moms don’t take this the wrong way. This is just how I feel about myself. All other new moms and moms who have been moms for many years deserve the best of treatment. I just can’t picture myself as one of them. Lol…

Well, Alyssa is back to sleep (she woke up hungry) so we’re going to lay back down. There’s a few hours left to sleep before I have to get up and get ready for church.

 Happy Mothers Day!!!

~Brann

4 months

4 months ago today, I had my beautiful baby girl. The last 4 months have passed so quickly! I feel like I just had her yesterday! I know the next 8 months will go by quickly too and then my baby will be a year old! OMG! Time is going by waaaay too fast! I was warned it would happen though. And it has. *Sigh*

She’s really sick right now though.  She’s so congested! She’s doing breathing treatments now and everything!  The medicine that she gets through the machine is Albuterol. I hope she’s not going to have asthma! I know that’s what the medicine is normally for. *I have it now, and have to use an inhaler. Ugh!* She has been coughing horribly, sneezing A LOT! *But, sometimes it gets some of that yucky stuff out… so that’s good. She’s coughed some up too. I’m glad she’s getting it out* The breathing machine seems to be helping her. I hate that she has to have it though. I think I’ve talked about her being sick already though. Oh well… you just get to hear about it again lol. She isdoing a little better though.

Her breathing machine is cute though, it’s a penguin and the case is an igloo. lol.

Well, she’s falling asleep in my lap, so I’m gonna go try to get her to lay down. I may go to sleep myself! We were up a lot last night.

Keep her in your prayers please that she gets better soon. Seeing her like this just breaks my heart!!!

~Brann

Alyssa is sick :(

I took Alyssa to the doctor today because she is really sick. I had an appt today and so mom brought Alyssa in while I was already back and when I got done I went to where they were. When I got to their room mom informed me that they were testing Alyssa for the flu and RSV!!! I’m sure you can guess my reaction! The results came back negative for both THANK GOD!!!! I was so afraid she was gonna have RSV! My first thought was “I got her vaccinated every month to make sure she didn’t get it, and now she’s going to anyway! ” That IS my luck. But she doesn’t. She is still sick though. She has to take breathing treatments every 4 hours. I almost cried giving her the first one in the doctors office! I just gave her another one before I started on this blog. We’re at my mom and dads right now. We stayed here last night, and might again tonight, I’m not sure though. I’m rocking her in the nursery up stairs. I just heard mom walk in the door (she went to work after the doctor) so I’m gonna lay Alyssa down for a nap and go talk to mom.

Brann