Me vs. Multiple Sclerosis

So, I suppose since this IS my blog, I am able to write my personal thoughts and feelings in it. Well, in order to do so, I have to tell one of my biggest secrets that I don’t tell many people at all. Even most who know me well don’t know. So, my secret as you may have guessed from the title is that I have MS (Multiple Sclerosis).

I was diagnosed at the tender age of 18. It was right after my 18th birthday actually, happy birthday to me huh? Lol… I remember when I was told that I had it I was terrified. I had no idea what it was really, I mean I had heard of it, but still! Did this mean I was going to die? I had no idea what the disease did. So, my doctor explained to me that I had to take an injection daily and how I can’t be in heat. So that means, he explained, no tanning bed, no being outside in the heat, and definitely no hot tubs. I was told I needed to take showers as cold as I could. Joy. I haven’t done the best at the shower thing actually, but I probably should. Who wants to take a cold shower?! Definitely not me! Haha.

Well, I’m 24 now so I’ve been doing quite well dealing with it so far, until recently. My symptoms have gotten significantly worse and after having the MRI that I have to have done ever so often they found that I have gotten much worse. Enough that my neurologist can’t see me anymore (which sucks because I loved him he’s great) and is refering me to a specialist. The one he’s refering me to is working his schedule around to get me in as soon as he can, because the closest opening he had was November 11th and apparently I need to be seen much sooner than that. I’m really nervous about it to be honest. I’m in so much pain that I’m having to stay with my parents so they can help me with Alyssa (who is 8 months now). It makes me feel like I’m so pathetic!! I can’t even take care of my own daughter!! What do you do though?

I do have to go. Alyssa needs her mommy.